Authorised Absence

So it's  been almost two months since my last blog and I am pleased to say, things have actually improved.

I sat my UKCAT, my scores are as follows:
VR-620
QR-630
AR-720
DA-720
Total: 2690
Average:672.5
Needless to say, I was very very pleased.

Two days before the UKCAT, I went for a job interview at a famous medical clinic based on London's Medical Mile. I had convinced myself that I wasn't going to be offered the job since they were just a little too well posh for little old me.

So, the next day I sat the UKCAT and the day after was my birthday. It was mostly spent cooking and cleaning and feeling sorry for myself. Until I got a phone call telling me I had by some miracle, impressed them enough that they wanted to give me the job.

I have been there for almost a week now and I absolutely love it. The people are so lovely, the patients are hilarious and the work is engaging. All going well so far and I hope it stays that way.

I have sent off my UCAS application, I have officially applied to:
Kings College London A101
Southampton BM6
Nottingham A108
East Anglia A104

I'll try not to leave it so long before I post again.

Remind me to tell you about the awkward exchanging of messages with an old school colleague

Explaining myself...

I'm sorry about yesterdays blog (and the lack of a blog on Thursday). It's been a pretty bad couple of days.

GCSE results were out on Thursday and the scores of children cheering due to their string of A*'s just reminded me of my results day :(

Really tried to work on UKCAT but just haven't been getting anywhere with it. It's like I realise how important it is, but then more important things just keep turning up. They've made changes to it this year, bloody brilliant.

I wish I was at uni this year, moving out, making friends, going on holiday etc. Instead I'm at home, applying for jobs and reading my old personal statement for the 1000th time. Oh not mention that I'm basically typing out my most inner thoughts and details on a blog that nobody reads. God I feel alone.

My friend who has just found out that her mum has breast cancer is in significantly better shape than I. We're still going to the GUM clinic and hopefully the chat we plan to have in McDonalds will help.

I probably won't blog tomorrow (nothing even vaguely interesting is happening in my life this weekend.

Clueless x

Losing my marbles...

The prospect of another year of being at home is really getting me down. I don't know why I didn't just go through clearing.

I apologise for the awful mood, the past two days just haven't been great.

Oh and the friend I was going to the GUM clinic with on Tuesday...her mother has just been diagnosed with breast cancer.

When shit things happen, they really happen.

Clueless x

This is a pretty crap blog, I promise to explain tomorrow (just in case there is anyone out there that cares. Although I'm pretty sure the only person reading this blog is me)

The Office or Office?

Went for the interview today (decided to weak a blue polka dot dress) and got the job, but...the pay is awful! I'm hoping to hold out for an actual office job rather than office, the shoe store.

I'll hold my hands up, I haven't done any UKCAT practice today :( but I have done a fair  bit about the foundations of my personal statement :)

Tomorrow, I plan on actually putting my personal statement plans into action, and yes I will definitely do some UKCAT preparation.

I will report on my profile visitor findings tomorrow. I'm sorry I haven't had much more exciting things to discuss. Ooh got tickets to Jonathan Ross show for next Wednesday, the guests are apparently Lewis Hamilton, Sarah Jessica Parker and ADELE! Woo Hoo. She'll obviously perform a song live, and usually her tickets got £400. We're going for free! It'll be me, my sister, Dev and his best friends who is lovely. Fun fun fun!

Clueless x

Bob on

I can honestly say that not much has happened today. Applied for jobs, sorted out my Admin CV and looked at my UKCAT book. I will definitely start answering questions tomorrow, (promise!)

Tomorrow is the job interview, feeling alright about it, not even sure if I want to take the job if it's offered to me.

Waxed Dev's chest today with help from my sister, men are definitely getting far too metrosexual. Had come dine with me on in the background, an episode where this DJ guy kept saying 'Bob On' (hence the post title). Became a bit of running gag.

Quite enjoyed the relaxed day. Oh and a friend has asked me to go to an STI test with her. Fun times :S but I do want to be there to support her and it might turn out to be pretty eye opening.

Until tomorrow,

Clueless x

p.s. really wish I knew if someone/anyone was reading this. I have no followers and am worried that my 30 profile views are all from myself, when I refresh the page. I will attempt not to log on at all tomorrow during the day and then see if the number has changed when I get on at night. That way, I might just catch you!

Feeling like a Junky (in the mail sense of the word)

So, I believe I littered the stores and clinics of London today. As disclosed yesterday, I went to hand out CV's  to stores (for a job) and letters to clinics for work experience. Job search went ok, although my feet really hurt. Looks like lots of places might be able to take me on, just have to wait and see. Got a job interview with office on Wednesday at 1pm, somebody called Leyla will be conducting it. Applied to quite a few online too. Had two replies about work experience, both are no's but it's more than I had yesterday. Very very tired now so will blog more today (well later today).

Sorry about the delay in blogging, very cheekily went for McDonalds with my brother and sister. Feeling pretty fat :(

Have an eventful Tuesday!

Clueless x

Another Day, Another Feeling

Woke up feeling quite good about the coming year. Had a shower etc, wrote down things to do for today. The list got progressively larger as the day went on. Going to hand out CV's tomorrow on Oxford Street, really really need a job. It will get me out of the house, and the money would be nice too. Typed up some letters to give to Medical Clinics on Wimpole/Harley Street, hopefully get some work experience out of it. The job really is the most important thing at the moment though. Had another look at my old personal statement, must be more reflective in new one. Messaged a whole bunch of people on the student room, some of the replies were less than helpful, kind of soured my mood but hey-ho.

As promised;time to introduce the brothers

Raman

Oldest of the siblings, had a tough childhood, had to grow up quite quickly. Studied uber hard and did very well for himself, but then continued to study and study and study. Now has about 5  degrees of varying lengths, almost finished his PhD now from wait for  it...Oxford University. Now stuck in a bit of a time warp, where he's acting like a teen even though he's in his 30's. Treats women with no respect and thinks he's gods gift to the world. Blames others for me not doing well, and congratulates himself whenever something good happens. Currently living in Canada, but skype's us all the time, unfortunately.

Dev

Second oldest sibling. Started out as an unruly child but since he's matured, he's never gone back. Very very very lazy when it comes to anything to do with home, but at work (he's a teacher), he's devoted to the kids. Was told (like me) he would amount to nothing, boy has he proved them wrong. Provides a lot of financial and emotional support for me, much appreciated may I add. If I become a doctor, I intend to buy him a fleet of cars and slowly back the loans using which I bought them. I find what he thinks about me to be very  important. Almost always takes my side, genuinely cares about every member of the family. Pretty cool dude.

Will let you know how job/work experience went tomorrow.

Toodle Pip,

Clueless x

Decision made, strap yourself in. Here we go again!

So I'm reapplying. Will be going through old personal statements and trying to contact people who have done similar stuff and got in. Pretty sure that I'll be applying to Southampton BM6, UEA A104, Leeds A100, and Kings EMDP for Medicine and Brighton for Pharmacy. Wish me luck.

Introducing the family- Mother

Pretty much an absent mother. Extremely  religious/spiritual. Spends most of her time away from home. Didn't want to marry Dad and so I think she believes she could have done better. Doesn't take my education very seriously.

Father


Dad has schizophrenia and has to take medication which has severe after effects. Genuinely a good guy. Loves to eat. Angry at Mum for not continuously cooking for him. Eventually caused them to separate. Takes no responsibility for me. Means well.

Tomorrow I shall introduce my brothers.

For now, goodbye.

Clueless x

If at second attempt you don't succeed...don't bother trying again?

Having spent the last 20 minutes trying to choose an appropriate font (and failing), I find myself suddenly conscious of my decision to share my 'experiences' with the world (5 or so views does not really constitute the 'world' but a girl can dream). I'm not sure how to write a blog but I do know that creating a blog is something I have wanted to do for a while now. I promise myself year after year that I will start writing a diary and the first couple of minutes after purchasing it will resemble the opening scenes of Bridget Jones Diary. It was more a case of pulling off the wrapping and never seeing it again. This blog will be different, I repeat, THIS WILL BE DIFFERENT.

While I hope to preserve my anonymity, I will tell you a little bit about myself.
I am 19 years, 10 months, 12 days old. I was born in Wolverhampton, Birmingham, (don't ask), but grew up in East London. I attended state primary and secondary schools in East Ham and a horrible sixth form in Greater London. I have a Mother, Father, 2 older brothers and an older sister (I hope to slowly introduce them all). I'm not an easy going or a bubbly person. I'm not sure what's going on with my life at the moment, and this statement allows me to explain the title.

I finished my A-levels for the first time (Maths, Chemistry, Biology and AS Physics) in June 2010 and received grades ABBd respectively. I had applied to 4 dental schools and 1 pharmacy school in that year even though I didn't want to study either of the two. I was rejected by all four dental schools before interview but offered a place at Cardiff University which I declined. The reason for this? I wanted to study Medicine. I have always allowed others to make decisions for me, since this was the tradition in my family, but I was making a stand.

So after results day, off I went planning my 'gap year'. But it was soon turned into a 'resit year', not a year re-sitting some exams while at school, no, that would be too easy. I was to re-sit exams outside of school while working and juggling family life. I applied to university again, this time 4 medical schools (Peninsula College of Medicine and Dentistry, Keele University, University of East Anglia and Southampton University) and Cardiff University Pharmacy School (they liked me once, why not again?) and shock horror, I got two interviews for Medicine and Cardiff  gave me an offer straight away of AAA. PCMD offered me a place but I had to get AAAc. I firmed PCMD and put Cardiff as my insurance. I can honestly say I worked my butt off and come results day, despite a couple of worries about a Biology paper, I thought I'd done it. So I dreamt of university life.

As any other student, I woke up full of nerves, tried to check UCAS Track and found it unable to cope with the large volume of students trying to log in. I went off to school to find out if I got into uni the old fashioned way. I picked them up from my much hated ex sixth form (where I had sat the exams), waited until I was almost home on a deserted road to open them. ABBc. Exactly the bloody same! I came home ready to face the family. I was in Clearing. I managed to bag a place at Plymouth University for Optometry (something which vaguely interests me).

I am now left with the choice of taking the Optometry course or taking an actual gap year where I'm not re-sitting exams but will apply to medical schools again but via the access schemes for deprived students where the grade requirements are lowered but the competition is fierce. What am I doing? I don't know yet.

Yours, literally, Clueless x

N.B. I promise that other posts will not contain as much UCAS jargon. I will also attempt to fill you in on the last 19 years of my life without making blogs this long, ever again.